If Hindsight is 20/20, Why Would I Still Not Change These “Mistakes”?

And I have another lovely guest today who is not only a fellow writer at Rebel Ink Press and Naughty Nights Press but she’s become a good friend. Give a warm welcome to Kiki Howell. Please notice she has a sexy contest!!!

You know the Dixie Chicks song, Not Ready To Make Nice ? Well when I look back at first short novel I wrote, A Modern Day Witch Hunt, I always think of that song for two reasons. This story was the one in my career which was written a result of a small upheaval in my personal life due to my writing which I now believe I am a much stronger person because of. Also, the story itself once it released forced me to make a tough decision, if what others were criticizing me for was worth walking away from my whole career for or if I should stay true to my voice and just keep going. Well, I’m still here *winks*


It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
Cause I’m mad as hell, can’t bring myself
To do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can’t you just get over it?
It turned my whole world around
And I kinda like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets… ~Dixie Chicks

Yep, I have no regrets, and am, I believe, a much stronger person for what has happened.  When I got my first contract for a story and picked my pen name which isn’t very different from my real name, I had originally, given the erotic content of my stories, decided I was going to keep my writing life basically a secret. But, tell a few people, and well everyone knows apparently even in a not so small town. To my surprise,  soon after my first story released, I found out that four men in my neighborhood were warning others to keep their wives away from me because I was a witch. *chuckles* And silly me thought it was the erotic rather than the paranormal content that was going to be the problem.  Of course, this is how I got the title for the novel, when my husband said the whole thing was truly a modern day witch hunt.

Things got a bit crazy for a bit, but I finally got mad enough to have fun with their ridiculousness rather than be upset by it. And, I’ve learned to hold my head high no matter what peoples complaint is about me is.  It was really a valuable lesson that I’ve applied in many ways to my life and has made me a much stronger person, one who is able to be herself and stand on my own two feet.

Now, onto the release and reviews of this story…complains came again. I have a degree to teach English and a more literary voice when I write. Readers and reviewers complained about all the description, the complicated plot, etc. I was told several times that literary erotica, that the two genres just didn’t mix.  But, given the first lesson, I decided not to change my voice. My stories were mine to write in the way I wanted to write them. So, I had a bit of a social message to convey in each tale, so I incorporated complicated research because it interested me, so I enjoyed the playing with the words when I wrote to get the descriptions just as I wanted them and I liked to leave the bedroom open or play with sex magick? Maybe it was all too much, and that is what many reviewers said, that the writing was over the top, the story just took too much to read having to re-read lines to figure out what they were saying, etc.

I could have quit there. I could have changed my voice and not enjoyed what I do as much. I even thought of re-writing the story. Some who did enjoy had said they wanted more information about the group of watchers I had created. Rather, I kept going, kept learning new things, and let my writing evolve. I still have my literary voice, I still like to leave the bedroom door open, and luckily I have found a nice following which keeps growing for which I am so grateful.

I like where I am, all I have accomplished and all I have coming up.  Speaking of, I’ve continued to write about witch hunts, as it is a period in history which touches me in a very profound way and makes me very sad at the same time. If you would like a taste, I have a historical free read called Premonitions and Curses that you can read on my blog,  http://authorsbyauthors.blogspot.com/2011/01/premonitions-and-curses-by-kiki-howell.html.

Also, as part of my Looking Back and Looking Forward Tour, starting today, there will be a Special Sale at my Etsy Store: – several copies of A Modern Day Witch Hunt  at ½ Price off the Amazon price.  Another story which is contemporary, but touches on how still today those who practice Wicca can be persecuted is my short with Rebel Ink Press, Working Out the Kinks. I really love the emotion in this story and had a lot of fun writing it. Speaking of fun, I had too much of it creating the book trailer video for it as well. You can check it out on Youtube. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wi-rbxYjEcM

Today, anytime I’m asked to give advice to aspiring writers, I always tell them to stay true to their voice. I once heard an editor say that, that it really showed in the story if it was the one you were meant to write.  What do you think? Who should we write for, our story to tell, or should we try to somehow conform to what is out there already? Comment to be entered to win a PDF copy of my novel, Irreconcilable Differences .  I will chose a winner this weekend 🙂


A Modern Day Witch Hunt Blurb: Kamillia is an author of paranormal romances living in an upscale suburb of Cleveland, Ohio. Accused of being an actual witch herself by an ambitious group of businessmen with a dark agenda, she is surprised to find a man who resembles one of her fictional, alpha male heroes at her door offering her protection.

Luca is an immortal Watcher from the River of Light. Sent to Earth to help Kamillia, whose true heritage has yet to be revealed to her, Luca is caught off guard by the fighting spirit of the woman and the way his human body betrays him in her presence.

When research for her next novel requires Kamillia to travel to Italy, she and Luca are forced to join together despite numerous obstacles to overcome the evil of many centuries blocking a portal there. Only then, can she return to the problems awaiting her in her own city, with or without this stranger who has captured her heart but cannot share her future.

“This was definitely a different rendering of a witch hunt and I have to say that what was certainly hot sex in the story was perpetrated for the most unique reason ever given. But I must say that the ending is perhaps the most intriguing one there has been given to a tale that doesn’t seem open to a sequel. Although just the tiniest bit convoluted in it’s premise and perhaps a wee bit confusing if you don’t read it slowly, it is nonetheless one of the most unusual reads I’ve had in a while.” ~ WitchGiggles at Alternative-Reads

Irreconcilable Differences Blurb: In a world where wizards and sorcerers do not get along due to differences in their magic, sorcerer, Aaron is hired to guard the wizard, Myleana.  However, the attraction between them once locked in an unusual lab under his own wall of protection ignites in otherworldly ways.

When they come under attack and all they believed in becomes questionable, will these two remain separated by their world’s prejudices?  Will the lies, betrayals and opinions of even their own families stand in the way of the alchemy of sex, especially when sorcery and wizardry come into play?

“I was drawn right into the world and could feel the tension between Aaron and Myleana leaping off of the pages. Kiki Howell did a wonderful job of providing just enough detail to make the story come to life.” ~4/5 Stars at 1000+Books To Read

Thanks so much for being a part of my wicked worlds and loved having you!

Kisses   xxx



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2 Responses to If Hindsight is 20/20, Why Would I Still Not Change These “Mistakes”?

  1. vampiriquedezire says:

    Fantastic post, so honest, upfront and comical. I can appreciate how you must have felt with people calling you a Witch. I used to work in a corporate office and had just gotten my new tattoo done, Hecate’s pentacle, on my inner left wrist. Only one person in the office new I had tattoos and came over during lunch break whilst I was rubbing cream into my wrist like a “good” girl to have a look at it. Another staff member came over and he was the type I could not stand, he was shuddering material. He saw my tattoo, went white in the face and with a shaky finger and quavering voice started yelling “Witch”. Well me being me, could not resist, stood up and walked over to him and quietly whispered, “Yes I am and fucking proud of it too, now would you like to be a toad or a rat?” and walked away giggling. He never spoke to me after that day and eventually got himself transferred out of our office and into another town. Yes I am what I would class as Pagan/Wiccan but it is not something I go about and tell everyone but if I asked I am proud to say I am.
    So good on you Kiki for standing up for what you believe in and not allowing others to shut you down.

    *bites n kisses*


    • Kiki Howell says:

      Thanks! Have had A LOT of fun with my situation since. My son even put a wand in my beach bag once since the men live right here in our lake community. I dress as a witch every Halloween and have lots of fun t-shirts from my Salem trip to wear year round. Floundering in my own spirituality, I never hesitate to admit to admit I can’t define myself right now, that I practice a little of everything, but regardless that these men should be grateful I won’t do all the black magic spells I come across on a daily basis in my research – they would be covered in boils by now! LOL


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